I think I finally have hit rock bottom , the idea of you seriously never coming back makes me weak, weaker than weak. You healed me when I was down I’m weak and need you , you’re not here now what , what do I do without keep staying up all night crying or wishing it wasn’t true , this is sick . I’m getting sick my mind is sick I never knew what type love you gave me until it was too late now I’m still here without you wishing I could change it kiss you more time hold you one more time tease you one more time I’m seriously not sure how to move on ? I’m sick I feel sick I wanna be sick I wanna be gone I’m done I’m tired I’m alone I’m scared I’m sick I’m sad I’m afraid I’m over it now what I’m crying as I write this , no k e can me no one cares it’s the same shit different day I hate myself no matter for not doing something different for you or with you . I’m sorry I know it wasn’t me but I know I should of listen more and never said you were like a brother to me , I guess I was just as scared as you were .